5 months in...

I know my image of what 30 was supposed to look like was a bit dream like.  

When I was 20, I thought 30 was sooo far away.  Haha.  The other day, I accidentally told someone I was 22.  I then did the math, and  I haven't been 22 in 8 years!  I thought by 30 I would have elementary aged children, have a house (with a pool??), and a husband who did all the yard work.

Well, here I am.  I have that amazing husband, but am to the point of not really wanting kids anymore, and we are still renting an apartment.  I am unemployed, and living in a state that I never imagined God would take me.  Kentucky!!  Where is that???

It's crazy how our plans for life go up in smoke.   I hardly even remember all the plans I've made that didn't work out.  That's how awesome my life has worked out!  I look back at what I thought life would be, and what it actually was.  I wouldn't change a thing... except maybe having that house with a pool.  :)

I also look back at who I was at 20, 22, 24, 26, 28... I definitely would change who I was from 20-26.  Those years were crazy.  The single 20's are hard on women.  It really messes with our psyche.  I can't blame the world for my complete insanities, mess ups, and bad decisions.  I can however, own up to them, and make sure I learned from them.  I can use the long lost friendships as motivation to work hard at my relationships.  I can remember not to let life get me down, or create drama where there shouldn't be any.

As I start my 30's, I want to own up to who I am.  I am working on changing a few things, and I know it's a never ending process of growth.  I am OK with that.  I am content staying home with the dog.  I am happy to cook and clean and serve my husband and my God.  Whatever plans He has for me, I will honor Him.  The only plans I'm making in my 30's are everyday decisions that mean health and happiness.